Lately I have been having more internal turmoil that seems to be increasing rather that decreasing. I found out about the infidelity in May and it feel like the month following I did a lot of stuffing down. I tried my best to move forward and convince myself that he loved me over and over […]

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Some times I feel this burning anger towards the other women. I imagine punching them in the face, bashing them on social media, messing with their reputations etc….then I will just feel sadness…empty….they had him….he had them…..I was oblivious….it just seems so evil when it sinks in……I hope one day when he is an old […]

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Before I found out about my husbands infidelity I always felt a sense of pride or thankfulness of being married to him. Despite dumb fights or annoyances I was so sure he was the one I was supposed to be with for the rest of my life. Now there is this lingering disappointment, this sense […]

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Tears from Lies

Tears from lies Too hard to say goodbye Disregarded yet torn Wishing our love had never been born Hard to face the facts That I did not have all of you intact You gave yourself away so effortlessly Meanwhile I thought you were my everything Tears from lies Too hard to say goodbye You didn’t […]

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The scariest thing

The scariest thing about staying with someone who has cheated on you is the knowledge that they are capable of doing the worst to you. Before I found out about my husbands infidelity I never wouldn’t thought he would be capable of hurting me so deeply. I never saw him as being a man capable […]

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The tears that go unseen

There are a lot of tears that I still shed that go unnoticed. Those moments where I am alone and the pain just hits me or the pain slowly creeps up on me. It’s been a few months since I found out the love of my life cheated on me with other women, and the […]

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